Broke me the most

"Evelyn Yen.

Hey there little one. Hahahaha. It’s funny how I can call you that because you’re actually little. But, I am fascinated how a person as small as you can have such a huge heart filled with love and caring for a person. yes, I meant every word. It’s kinda hard to believe since you see me as an asshole as well but, I mean it. You truly did care about me. You loved me even without telling me. I am beyond sorry for unintentionally leading you on. I really didn’t mean to leave you just like that. I had so much fun hanging out with you. You always made me smile because you were just so tiny and cute hahahahaha. I liked how you always tried to find a way to talk to me even if you had to hide in a car or sign in on yahoo, or even hide under a blanket so that your mom or dad won’t know you’re talking to me. I truly appreciated everything you did for me. You never once gave up on trying. And i am sorry that I couldn’t really return the favor. I was stupid to believe you’d always be around. So that was a mistake I made. I shouldn’t have taken you for granted. I thought I could never lose you but you showed me that everything can be lost. With enough pain, you can lose the ones who truly care about you. So thank you for sharing that mistake with me. Today I show my appreciation more clearly and I’m very thankful that you helped me get out my comfort zone and be more open with how I feel. I use to act nonchalant as if I didn’t care about the things you did for me but deep down I was really happy that someone actually cares enough about me the way you did. I’m sorry if it seemed like I just tossed you aside but I really did care about you. I chose someone who I can actually see and be with in person because that’s what I was looking for at that moment. I am deeply sorry for hurting you and treating you the way I did. Angela was right. You deserve someone better than a dimwitted asshole like me. I know you haven’t forgiven me for what I did. But the fact that you still talk to me when I say hi to you gives me hope that we can rebuild our fallen friendship. So, thank you for showing me how to appreciate someone who cares about me unconditionally.

With every word,
Jojo."