thankful.

4am, just sitting here. i wish everyone was still around. should've cherished the time we had with each other more than we did, cause serio, you dont know what you've had till' its gone, and its definitely gone, and it's hitting hard. thanks guys, you mean the world to me, really, scouts honor.

C'est bon.

i keep running away from things, as if i can run away from the action and feelings attached to them, it's not working.
my anxiety is subsiding & i'm trying not to pretend so much.
i dont like to feel his eyes on me when i look away or at any given time at all actually, cause i cant handle any of that right now, not from him at least. i love sleep. my life has the tendency to fall apart when i'm awake.

when we escape

i've got to this point where sometimes i really do think i'm accepting it, and then in just a matter of moments later - i'm back at square one, ground zero, the starting line.

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